Leighly the Strange (a_wee_bit_tipsy) wrote,
Leighly the Strange

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ennui, anyone?

I came home from babysitting tonight and felt seriously unmotivated. More unmotivated than I can ever remember feeling. I didn't want to do my homework, which is nothing new...but there was also no appeal in watching tv, drawing, listening to my iPod, rereading Wicked, or even going online. It's the oddest feeling; especially because I am often so upbeat and optimistic.

So I've been trying to think up what it IS that I want to do. And I don't know. Sleep, maybe. But I have things to accomplish...I'd like to say I got at least SOME homework done before Sunday. (Though ironically, I have less this weekend than I did last weekend, before school started. Heh.)

It kind of worries me. Am I doomed to be unmotivated for the rest of my life? Am I just a lazy, unmotivated person? It's possible. And it freaks me out. I need to give myself a little kick in the ass. Or a big one.

In other news, our first Drawing/Painting project is self-portraits. I hate staring at myself in a mirror for so long, so it won't be great, and yet...it'll be awesome. Human faces are my favorite things to draw--even, I suppose, my own. (After all, I have to look in the mirror even when drawing fictional characters so that I get the placement of features right.) I hope to get even better at figuring out anatomy so my drawings look better.

And that's really all I have to say.

If anyone wants to leave any perky, happy comments, they would be very welcome.

P.S. I just realized how ironic my Music was, considering the subject of this entry.
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